Waiting is hard, but I feel I am meant for more.
I hear the hackling of the vultures,
They pick at my relentlessly
I am tired and bitter
They circle overhead waiting my next move.
They want me to fail.
I feel already have.
I fall to my knees.
I do the only thing I have left.
I let go.
I let go of everything I think I am.
What I think I’m meant to do.
Something begins to stir deep in my soul.
I’m still in the desert, but I smell the rain in the distance.
I Am His.
I Am His.
It is Christmas Eve. Darkness covers the gathered crowd. Candles high, cast a warm glow against the darkness. The darkness cannot stand against the light. The light will always win. I feel my heart contract, “No matter how dark things are. I will always cast the light. My light will always be more.”
In the midst of Darkness it is hard to see the light. Your pain and grief makes it hard to look up…
So long ago the same darkness was over the land. The people await the birth of the Messiah. Jesus was Expected. Anticipated. Jesus was needed. Prophesy of promises gave hope.
“For to us a child is born, to us a son is given, and the government will be on his shoulders. And he will be called Wonderful, Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.” Isaiah 9:6
A long awaited savior is born! Humbly he has come to save a dark and barren world. The light in our darkness, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life” (John 8:12). With God ALL things are possible. No grief, No pain, NOTHING can separate you from the LOVE of God!
Behold the Child is Born. They will call him Emmanuel: God with us. He is our light. Our Hope.
Merry Christmas my sweet friends,
I am a Kindergarten teacher. Often I will tell my Kindergarteners, “Patience. Patience: is waiting without getting upset.” Waiting is hard. The bible says, “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you (Matthew 7:7).” We dwell on that first line, “Ask and it will be given to you,” but we often look over the process to the promise.
If all I’m dong is asking, then I’m forgetting about the actions that need to be taken. Seek and knock. Both words are verbs. Both are meant to be done in you’re waiting. I can’t help but think: If I am meant to wait, then there has to be a divine purpose for my waiting. There is something I need to learn in my waiting. My waiting has a purpose. My choices are simple, I can choose to ball up my fist and throw a huge fit because things are not going my way. I could even choose to pick and annoy the friends around me with constant complaints. Or I could stand up tall, wear a smile and wait well. No matter what, I have to wait. My waiting can be done with grace or disgrace?
Waiting is hard and before it is my turn, before anything I have asked for happens, I will praise Him! Seek Him. When I’m forced to wait in this never ending line; when the people around me are trying to pull me down; When encouragement does not come, rejoice anyway! Seek his word. Look to the stories where people waited well or poorly. Genesis 16:1-4 God promised Abraham a son, He did not wait well, He was manipulative and during his wait time he fathered another child with another wife, who was not the child God had promised. David was waiting to be King and struggled aimlessly escaping to the land of the Philistines, thinking if he didn’t Saul would kill him (1 Samuel 27:1). Also in 1 Samuel 1 you can find the story of Hannah waiting for a baby. Years and Years Hannah would pour out her soul to the Lord for a baby. She would seek, she would knock. She waited with purpose. She praised God in the mist of her longing. She gave it to the Lord and waited. God gave her son.
Today if you are waiting, waiting on that job, a husband, a wife, a baby, or maybe you feel like you are just waiting for more. I urge you to wait with grace. Praise Him for you’re waiting! Knowing He has a plan and a purpose for you’re waiting. You are His daughter or son. Your more is only found in Him. #WaitWell.
“Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord!” Psalm 27:14
Wait Well My Friend,
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