Life

Body & Soul Detox

I just got back from my first cruise on the Carnival Breeze.  I went to three different countries; Grand Cayman Islands, Mexico, and Jamaica. Processed with VSCO with a5 preset Never in my wildest dreams did I think I would ever see an ocean so blue, vast, and never ending.  I snorkeled  with stingrays at Grand Cayman,  saw the diversity of Jamaica, and laid on the beach in Cozumel.  The excursions were wonderful!  The cruise itself had an amazing view, service, shows, activities, and food.  Overall I loved my first cruise experience all but the motion sickness and the 15 pounds I gained.  Ahh!  Yes, you heard me, 15 pounds!  Usually on vacation I am used to gaining a couple pounds give or take, but I have never gained this much so fast.  At 28, I find I gain weight quicker and it is getting harder and harder to lose.  It is time for some serious DETOX!

 

Detox by definition, is a process or period of time in which one abstains from or rids the body of toxic or unhealthy substances.  I need this, but not just a detox of my body, but in my soul.  I feel the older I get the harder it is to change unhealthy behaviors and or habits.  It is easier to feel stuck and stagnant with myself and the Godly relationship I crave.  I want to be better, healthier.  I want to detox my life.   I know I am not the only one that feels this way.  Everyone wants to be a better version of themselves.  No one wants to be over weight or feel stagnant in their relationships, or even feel stuck in unhealthy habits that you always want to change but never do.   I’m convinced that no one wants to feel trapped by an unhealthy lifestyle that has the potential to harm themselves and those they love most.  However like myself,  I can physically see that my body needs to change,  but what of my spiritual healthy?  I want this passionate and consistant relationship with God.  I want to please him, and I believe in him, but there is something amiss that I can’t put my finger on.  Maybe, I need to detox my body and soul.

 

Day 1: Cleaning Out  IMG_2386

  • Whats holding me back from reaching this pinnacle relationship with God?
  • Whats is hurting my personal relationships? 
  • What is holding me back from losing weight? 

Its hard that the answer to all of these is myself.  I am selfish, lazy, and I am filled with excuses.  We live in a culture that focuses on I, that we lose sight of Him.  “We become scarred and desensitized to whats right and wrong, good and evil, life-giving and life-draining, we lose sight of our first love.” (Groeschel, 2012, p.13).   Everything matters.  Everything we do, everywhere we go, Everything we say should reflect our love and commitment to Christ.  Everything matters, just like a physical diet.  What we put in our bodies reflects what comes out.  Everything we allow our minds to think and see and how we focus our time effects our heart and our lives.  Everything matters and impacts the growth we so desperately want.

Now what?

When I start a diet I have to rid myself and cleanse my body of harmful toxins that will effect my cravings.  I started my physical diet Monday.  I started clean eating.  I started clean myself of all the crap I’ve put into my body during that amazing vacation.  The same needs to be done with my soul.  I don’t like what Ive been putting into my mind, heart, and life and it has effected my relationship with my first love, and my second.  I want to be better.  I want a better relationship with God.  I want more.  The more I yearn for as always been God and can only be filled by God.

Only God can restore and detoxify our soul.  I most start with repentance.

 

Wash away all my iniquity and cleanse me from my sin. 

Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean; wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.

Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.

Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me

Amen.

-Psalm 51:2, 7, 10, 12

 

Don’t stop until you are who you want to be.

Love, Caitlyn

 

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Soul Detox by Criag Groeschel

Life · New Years Resolution

You Will Need More Than Willpower to Conquer that New Year’s Resolution

It’s a New Year with a fresh start!  I can start eating better.  I can read my bible more!  I can spend more time with family.  I can be better than I was last year… This is always the New Years mentality.  I find the New Year even giving me a surge of determination.  With this new sense of drive, I find myself asking, why?

Why do I wait for passing year for a “fresh start”?  I  always have that option no matter the time of year.  I find that this fresh start has always been possible.  A fresh start or A New Year’s Resolutions is always possible with God.  I find that no matter how great the resolution,  I will always fail.  I’m human.  My own willpower will never be enough.  I believe if I want my resolution to last it needs to have something more then my human willpower backing it up.  Lets face the facts,  My willpower will only last me so far into this new year, and the minute things start getting hard willpower checks out.  Willpower is fueled by my mind, will, and emotions.  If I really don’t want to go to the gym my mind will give plenty of excuses not to go.  “I just ate.”  “My knee is killing me.” “I think chasing  Little Johnny on the playground counted as cardio.”  The mind is deceitful above all things.  Fact is I am instructed to be spirit-led, not willpower-led (Meyer, 2007).  My soul’s (mind, will, emotions) determination can only drive me so far, but I’m going to need God’s Spirit to get me to my goal.  Zechariah 4:6 says, “Not by might, nor power, but by My Spirit, says the Lord of hosts.”  #spiritpower

So instead of the normal New Year’s hype determining my motivation,  I’ll rely on God’s Power to drive me through the long months ahead.  Jesus did say in John 15:5, “Apart from me you can do nothing.”

God, I need you.  I need you in this year to come.  I need your spirit to guide and grow me into the woman you are calling me to be.  My soul is weak without  you.  Help me beat my flesh in 2018.  Be my willpower!  Help me to fix my eyes on you in my weakness.  

 

This inspired me this week.  On the bible app Joyce Meyer has a 14 day devotional from her book, New Day, New You.  I am really enjoying it!  Check it out!!