I find myself constantly trying to earn my own salvation. I feel like I serve and I do, “God see, look what I’m doing for you.” I had to stop and check myself. In this season the enemy has been taunting me with my past. I find that I’m desperately serving to atone for past mistakes. Mistakes that have already been covered with the blood of Christ. I have already been shown mercy, grace, and love yet my humanity can’t seem to forgive myself.
I find thats the hardest part about being Christian; Accepting the love of Christ. God forgets but we remember. I know what the scripture says, He has placed my sin in the sea of forgetfulness. My sin is as far as the east is from the west. All I have to do is let go and accept God’s Mercy. Mercy is the compassion or forgiveness shown towards someone whom it is in one’s power to punish or harm. You see we know that we deserved the cross yet God choose to buy us back by the sacrifice of His only Son. God has the right to punish us for our actions except he shows us mercy, A mercy we don’t deserve. I am in awe. This love is the hardest to understand. I do not have to do anything. Nothing. There is nothing to earn, I just have to accept it.
I am writing, because I see so many of us trying to stay on the Platform in front of Pilot, I find we are trying to atone for sins already paid. Jesus already took your place, He already paid the price for your sins. He loved you so much and there was nothing you had to do. I see Pilot taking our chains off, while we are saying, “No I deserve this!!” All the while Jesus looks at us, “No, this is mine. Let me have your sin, Let me have you pain. ”
You see Our greatest Challenge is not our discipline, our devotion, it’s not the amount of things we can do. Our greatest challenge is believing the Gospel. Letting go and letting God take our shame and turn it into something beautiful. You are beautiful and worthy of the this great love story. You are His Daughter and Son.
God, I can’t put my mind around the love you gave. You overwhelm me. I am in awe. God I pray for myself and everyone else reading this, Help us not work to deserve something already given. Help us accept Your Love in a new way. Help us accept and show your love in the world around us. You are a good good Father and I love you so so much. Thank you for your love that I do not deserve. Thank you for saving me and taking my place. Amen.