I just got back from my first cruise on the Carnival Breeze. I went to three different countries; Grand Cayman Islands, Mexico, and Jamaica. Never in my wildest dreams did I think I would ever see an ocean so blue, vast, and never ending. I snorkeled with stingrays at Grand Cayman, saw the diversity of Jamaica, and laid on the beach in Cozumel. The excursions were wonderful! The cruise itself had an amazing view, service, shows, activities, and food. Overall I loved my first cruise experience all but the motion sickness and the 15 pounds I gained. Ahh! Yes, you heard me, 15 pounds! Usually on vacation I am used to gaining a couple pounds give or take, but I have never gained this much so fast. At 28, I find I gain weight quicker and it is getting harder and harder to lose. It is time for some serious DETOX!
Detox by definition, is a process or period of time in which one abstains from or rids the body of toxic or unhealthy substances. I need this, but not just a detox of my body, but in my soul. I feel the older I get the harder it is to change unhealthy behaviors and or habits. It is easier to feel stuck and stagnant with myself and the Godly relationship I crave. I want to be better, healthier. I want to detox my life. I know I am not the only one that feels this way. Everyone wants to be a better version of themselves. No one wants to be over weight or feel stagnant in their relationships, or even feel stuck in unhealthy habits that you always want to change but never do. I’m convinced that no one wants to feel trapped by an unhealthy lifestyle that has the potential to harm themselves and those they love most. However like myself, I can physically see that my body needs to change, but what of my spiritual healthy? I want this passionate and consistant relationship with God. I want to please him, and I believe in him, but there is something amiss that I can’t put my finger on. Maybe, I need to detox my body and soul.
Day 1: Cleaning Out
- Whats holding me back from reaching this pinnacle relationship with God?
- Whats is hurting my personal relationships?
- What is holding me back from losing weight?
Its hard that the answer to all of these is myself. I am selfish, lazy, and I am filled with excuses. We live in a culture that focuses on I, that we lose sight of Him. “We become scarred and desensitized to whats right and wrong, good and evil, life-giving and life-draining, we lose sight of our first love.” (Groeschel, 2012, p.13). Everything matters. Everything we do, everywhere we go, Everything we say should reflect our love and commitment to Christ. Everything matters, just like a physical diet. What we put in our bodies reflects what comes out. Everything we allow our minds to think and see and how we focus our time effects our heart and our lives. Everything matters and impacts the growth we so desperately want.
When I start a diet I have to rid myself and cleanse my body of harmful toxins that will effect my cravings. I started my physical diet Monday. I started clean eating. I started clean myself of all the crap I’ve put into my body during that amazing vacation. The same needs to be done with my soul. I don’t like what Ive been putting into my mind, heart, and life and it has effected my relationship with my first love, and my second. I want to be better. I want a better relationship with God. I want more. The more I yearn for as always been God and can only be filled by God.
Only God can restore and detoxify our soul. I most start with repentance.
Wash away all my iniquity and cleanse me from my sin.
Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean; wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.
Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.
-Psalm 51:2, 7, 10, 12
Don’t stop until you are who you want to be.